monoseasonal affective disorder (MAD)

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this place is a mistake! we were meant to live on farms; we were intended for the city. i used to swim through universes between the microscopic hours of five and nine. even the ghosts won't stay. here.

fixing one's sights
upon tree tops
is windowboxing

there are those who need glass to look at themselves, there are those who need the chalice to look inside themselves, and there are those of us who need _________ to look beyond ourselves

but must this sacred geometry be rational/irrational? irrational is the most imprecise word we have.

a heart should always go one step too far

i will come back as st.germain
until there are no more ortolans to be tasted
under excruciating white veils

we [have to] deaden ourselves just to live

i want to wake up, publish what i have, and get on a series of airplanes